Jenny Wants to Say...

Done!

2007-11-16T12:33:00.000+11:00

Finally, I am done with my last round of exams in uni (hopefully it is the last!). 2 days have past since I finished my last paper and I am already finding it boring...long way to go till the results are out and till my graduation. 19th December, hope I will be in Wilson Hall to get my cert. Things are so unpredictable and I am getting worried for my results. Investments paper I think may be the worse paper I have done for this semester. Even EPM i did not feel so bad for the last semester. duh...I am praying hard.

Talked on the phone with dad regarding our new house's renovation. haha, dad said for my room jus give me a bed and cupboard will do, or else I will always stay at home and would not want to leave home. hehe, I think he is starting to get worried as I am turning 20 soon and still single. lolx~ I said at least supply me with a table and internet mar...then dad say lagi tak boleh! bcos with internet then i will always stick in front of my computer le...lolx~ cute dad! i miss dad so much...i miss his hugs and manja-ing with him...52 days more to go till my flight leaves melbourne.

Even now, I am already starting to miss melbourne although I am still here. Life will be so different back in m'sia. the weather, the public transport, the internet speed etc. haha, funny me right? awaiting to go back home but starting to perli things back in m'sia. bow and arrow situation. =p anyway, I do still hope that I will come back here one day to build my own family here. Future, looks so far from now though...

having bad rashes on both of my elbows. itch till I hiam hiam go long-piak lar. went to see the doc and presribed me with a cream. that tube of cream cost me $16.95. my god...I can go eat a good meal of dim-sum liao lor...hope it heals soon lar, if not have to go see doc again le. best if can gimme a jab heal it in a few hours time. grrrr.....fedup.

woohoo, i finished 20 episodes of show within a nite + a day. my eyes almost pop-out. my roomie must have thought i gila siao le bcos i was crying here and laughing there...haha, paiseh paiseh. ok lar, I am abit crying baby de lar. lil lil things will be enuf to make me cry. so when you talk to me becareful ok? before i start crying the next secone and you will go siao.

things and people are changing. I am not sure what will be waiting for me upon my return. BUT I believe I will be brave enough to stand up if ever I fall. I am in the process of learning to be 坚强. I know that it will be a rough journey ahead for me. Even if I were to fall and bleed, I have faith in myself that I will stand up and continue till I reach the end of it. Wish me luck guys...

btw, I am looking for voluntary work in Melbourne. a better way to utilise my holidays rather than rot at home in front of my laptop mar...=)

random ngam cham

2007-10-14T21:24:00.001+10:00

4 days had past since i said will start kicking for my finals. aha, wanna know how much have i done? erm...not much though...did my investments assignment on friday evening till 2 something in the morning with c and zh and my data lead me to a stuck...wt*...i will reli ki siao if gil gil gives me another set of new data and ask me to do again!

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finals is already very very near. its jus 3 weeks away. erm, i needa start kicking lar. i don't know how many times i will say that, but i know tomorrow i am going for dim-sum and shopping at Myer first. teehee, theres sales! hope to get something that suits what i want, although i myself is also not sure what am i actually looking for. =p

thats all for tonite. good nite and sweet dreams! don't let the bed bugs bite! =)

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85 days to 7th Jan 2008.

finally done

2007-10-10T19:45:00.000+10:00

finally done with my taxation law final assessment. having a bad migraine during assignment timing is reli very very extremely not fun...you can feel your brain thumping in your head and your hair scalp is so tense as if it will crack if you dare to touch it and blood will start oozing from it....

i would like to say thanks here to those ppl who helped me get thru this assignment in a smoother pace, although its not reli tat smooth lar. haha, you know who you are. =) and thanks to those fishy ppl who forced me to learn tat reality is harsh. ya. true. its harsh! i still can't seem to accept it though...but i'll learn to.

anyway, i hope i'll be starting to kick of for the finals. soon. very soon. very very soon. very very very soon. extremely soon. wish me luck ok? i'll be glad if you do. =)

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89 days to go till 7th january 2008.

the most stupid thing to do!

2007-10-08T11:56:00.000+10:00

yl borrowed some shows from me which i copied and pasted into the dvd-r. she told me her comp couldn't read the dvd so i mar ask her to bring it to me and i'll burn it lor. mana tau i thought i was clever to format all my dvd-r(s) and sure enuf my burner won't work lar after formatting the disc. duh...i oni called my cousin to find out wth is happening after i have formatted 7 pieces and left with one not formatted yet. sure enuf i manage to burn the show into the piece not formatted and all 7 pieces is 'rubbish' le...cannot use to burn show le. if it was only a piece or two i wouldn't feel that bad, but the problem is.........its more than half a dozen! holy shit! act pandai summore lar!!! =.=

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mum asked me how was my studies while skype-ing with her yesterday. she asked me, only 50% of what the lecturer you understand ar? then how?......i was stunned, because i never told her bout that before, takkan she read my blog?! oh no...pray hard i will do well in my finals. 4 air tickets have been bought and i can't afford to not graduate end of this year! all of you out there, wish me luck! =p

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counting the days down to 7th janunary 08! 92 days more to go! i'm so excited! =)

Random ngam cham

2007-10-05T00:34:00.000+10:00

Wisdom Quote for the day by 慧海法师:

“ 是非不传播，对错不糊涂。
得失不计较，有无不比较。
来去不留恋，起落不挂碍。”

I always believe the theory of 种瓜得瓜，种豆得豆. however, this does not seem to be happening in real life wor... did unexpectedly bad for my mid-semesters. i thought that i will at least be an average student by getting the average mark, mana tau i was always a bit more behind the average mark. for example my investments, 0.75 behind the average mark. audit oso, 3 marks behind the average mark and corp fin dono how many marks behind. duh...life is so frustrating lar. i studied like shit (that's what i think lar) but i get shitty results, so should i work like shit summore ar....can anyone tell me?

i think i am sort of 'allergic' to flu tablets. without fail for the past few rounds after taking it i had terrible, scary dreams. dreams that make me 飚冷汗 to think about it. then i end up sleeping for 11 hours instead of my originally planned of 8 solid hours and in the end, more...tired instead of refreshing (but my nose stop leaking lar).

one more month and the finals will be here. finishing 4 subjects in exactly a week doesn't seem to be so great after all. i rather have a gap of a week between each subject. i don't mind closing the door for REB if i can have more time to prepare for my subjects. anywayz...holiday will be fun besides the fact that i will be worried till the results are out! =)

p/s: the fact to whether apply for pr is still bothering me. how?! how?! how?!

不能说的秘密

2007-10-01T21:40:00.000+10:00

开始的时候并没有对这套戏抱持着很大的兴趣，但在妹妹都说好看的情况下，就开始想看了。。。

看完之后，真得没有后悔。可能如果叫我再看多三次也没问题吧！看完之后的感想--很强烈的震撼。没想到这作品那么棒！从来没有一句电影可以让我感觉得如此。但也有点喘不过气的感觉。。。可能因为有点悲吧！

还没看的朋友们不妨看一看！相信你们应该不会后悔的！=)

Exam timetables

2007-09-29T21:59:00.000+10:00

The timetable of my final round of exam in uni life is officially out! Starting on 6th November and ending on 13th November. So short time summore having a weekend in between, sure it doesn't looks nice lar. Officially announcing my time table everyone!

6th Nov - Investments
7th Nov - Corporate Finance
9th Nov - Auditing and Assurance Services
13th Nov - Taxation Law

So.....anyone of you want to come over to Melbourne after 13th Nov? Wish me luck and bless me in order to stop surfing internet till the exams end! I can't stop surfing the net leh...Blog-hopping is soooooooooo fun! Fluff racing for fluff pets on Facebook is soooooooo fun too! XD

Random

2007-09-24T20:40:00.000+10:00

Ahhhhhhh! more than half of my final semester in uni is gone and what i understand from lectures and tutes are not more than half! i think i did badly in my corporate finance and investments mid-sem test. dare not imagin how will the results be, but sure, i hope i can at least can a pass, PLEASE!!!

had been ages ago since i cooked a proper meal this year. suddenly this afternoon when i woke up i started craving for pork rib curry! after a quick shower, rushed down to IGA to get some pork ribs and the curry paste. hohoho, in an hour, tada! my curry is done! mana tau hor, i forgot to cook rice =.=, so i just ate it with pita bread lor...

Pork Rib Curry with Potatoes and Egg

life is soooooooooo extremely hectic this semester. assignments started to pour in and then mid-sem tests and continue again with assignments. did quite badly for the first taxation law assignment and the second one i started cutting more than 300 words like nobody's business...hope the marker will understand what i wrote. XD

wasted more than half of my holiday surfing the internet. from facebook to friendster to blog-hopping. found a few interesting blogs, especially those that blog about good food. see till eye big big and mouth starting to drool pula...

will be returning to m'sia on 7th january 2008 instead of 31st december 2007. dad won't be coming for my graduation and an & sulin will be coming on 23rd december. disappointed lar dad can't come =(. looking forward to return back home. i reli reli reli reli reli reli reli miss everything back home. will be moving to Bandar Puteri next year i think. woohoo! i can visit ah lee very often then! muahahahahahaha!

finally...hope i won't continue wasting the rest of my holiday lar...good luck to goon mun who will be sitting for a paper in november and to mum yee who have left for uk to further her studies and to pang zi for his wisdom teeth operation tomorrow and to myself to be able to 顺顺利利 graduate end of this year! GAMBATE! =)

12月1日愉快放纵者

2007-08-17T09:11:00.000+10:00

出生于12月1日的射手一通常是直言不讳、口没遮拦的人，而且是说到做到的行动派。虽然经常出言不逊，但是他们闪亮、认真的眼神和佯装出来的无辜表情，总是能够博得人们的原谅。除了言语的不受羁绊之外，他们也喜欢违反常规陋习，尤其是碰到与他们本身利害攸关的事情时更是如此。

人们或许因此认为12月1日出生的人都非常浅薄，其实不然；相反地，他们的个性也可能很深沉、复杂，只不过一根肠子通到底，凡事都溢于言表罢了。有时他们似乎会受一股莫名的力量驱使，根本不知道自己在做什么，甚至怀疑自己的定力不够，但是这种奇妙的精神状态却也帮助他们成就了不少的事情。

今天出生的人同时也是非常慷慨、乐善好施的人，他们对周遭的朋友或较亲密的人都会毫不吝啬地给予财务、时间或精神上的照顾；可是，忙碌的工作却经常使得这些大状况人少有时间做想做的善事，因此，不但自己觉得非常沮丧，身边的亲人也常怨声四起。虽然如此，有如自动发电机的12月1出生的者还是会知其不可为而为之，竭尽所能地满足各方需求。

对于异性，今天出生的人可是调情的个中好手。不过，尽管喜欢对旁人展现魅力，他们还是会把最真挚的爱留给特别的人。在成长的过程中，他们大多经历过顽皮的童年时代、狂风暴雨的青春期，以及脚步尚未踏稳的早熟成人期。幼时因调皮捣蛋而受处罚或父母过多的限制，也会造成挫折感的不断累积。在性爱上所表现的主动与强近态度，正反映了今天出生的人内在深切的不安全感。

12月1日出生的人拥有高度的自由灵魂。虽然他们可以胜任一切的公司事务，但是，如果他们感觉时机正确，而公司也能依着他们的决定，让他们卯足了劲去做想做的事情，在工作上的表现将会好上加好。然而，长时间待在同一个地方工作，会将他们自由的灵魂一点一点地消磨掉，造成公司的损失，就像久困牢笼的动物会失去自然的本能一样。

总而言之，自由自在地表现，对12月1日出生的人来说非常重要。只不过他们也必须了解到，社会上的人不会永远容忍他们桀骜不驯的态度，所以今天出生的射手一最好学会保留、圆融一点，不要任何情绪都赤裸裸地呈现在别人面前。而且，如果想让别人看重自己，应该先在自己的可信度上多下点工夫。

醒觉

2007-08-07T11:13:00.000+10:00

在禪宗裡有這樣的一個故事：有一位高僧，是一座大寺廟的方丈，因年事已高 ,心中思考著找接班人。

一日，他將兩個得意弟子叫到面前，這兩個弟子一個叫慧明，一個叫塵元。高僧對他們說：「你們倆誰能憑自己的力量，從寺院後面懸崖的下面攀爬上來，誰將是我的接班人。」慧明和塵元一同來到懸崖下，那真是一面令人望之生畏的懸崖，崖壁極其險峻陡峭。

身體健壯的慧明，信心百倍地開始攀爬。但是不一會兒他就從上面滑了下來。慧明爬起來重新開始，儘管這一次他小心翼翼，但還是從山坡上面滾落到原地。慧明稍事休息了後又開始攀爬，儘管摔得鼻青臉腫，他也絕不放棄…… 讓人感到遺憾的是，慧明屢爬屢摔，最後一次他拼盡全身之力，爬到半山腰時，因氣力已盡，又無處歇息，重重地摔到一塊大石頭上，當場昏了過去。高僧不得不讓幾個僧人用繩索，將他救了回去。

接著輪到塵元了，他一開始也是和慧明一樣，竭盡全力地向崖頂攀爬，結果也屢爬屢摔。塵元緊握繩索站在一塊山石上面，他打算再試一次，但是當他不經意地向下看了一眼以後，突然放下了用來攀上崖頂的繩索。然後他整了整衣衫，拍了拍身上的泥土，扭頭向著山下走去。旁觀的眾僧都十分不解，難道塵元就這麼輕易的放棄了？大家對此議論紛紛。只有高僧默然無語地看著塵元的去向。

塵元到了山下，沿著一條小溪流順水而上，穿過樹林，越過山谷……最後沒費什麼力氣就到達了崖頂。當塵元重新站到高僧面前時，眾人還以為高僧會痛罵他貪生怕死，膽小怯弱，甚至會將他逐出寺門。誰知高僧卻微笑著宣佈將塵元定為新一任住持。眾僧皆面面相覷，不知所以。

塵元向同修們解釋：「寺後懸崖乃是人力不能攀登上去的。但是只要於山腰處低頭下看，便可見一條上山之路。師父經常對我們說： "明者因境而變，智者隨情而行 "，就是教導我們要知伸縮退變的啊。」

高僧滿意地點了點頭說：「若為名利所誘，心中則只有面前的懸崖絕壁。天不設牢，而人自在心中建牢。在名利牢籠之內，徒勞苦爭，輕者苦惱傷心，重者傷身損肢，極重者粉身碎骨。」然後高僧將衣缽錫杖傳交給了塵元，並語重心長地對大家說：「攀爬懸崖，意在堪驗你們心境，能不入名利牢籠，心中無礙，順天而行者，便是我中意之人。」

世間痴情之人，執著於勇氣和頑強者不在少數, 但是往往卻如故事中的慧明一樣，並不能達到心中嚮往的那個地方，只是摔得鼻青臉腫，最終一無所獲。在己之所欲面前，我們缺少的是一份低頭看的淡泊和從容。

低頭看，並不意味著信念的不堅定和放棄，只是讓我們擁有更多的選擇和迴旋的餘地。

Dreams...

2007-07-02T23:35:00.000+10:00

Had been giving myself some time to drop into my secondary shool time memories for the past few days. Suddenly, something crossed my mind: how many among us that really went ahead in pursuing out dreams?

To really count, the ones that i know well, only 3 out of so many of us that really went ahead and pursued what they had in their mind -- PM, to be a pharmacist, she did A-levels and now NUS has offered her a place in pharmaceutical; SN, as far as i knew, she wanted to be an architech, and she's now doing it in Taylors; and SK, who wanted to be a doc, is currently in UCSI.

For my gang, I think only PM went after pursuing her dreams she had before in secondary school. For those that did not, a very good example, its ME! I even told my juniors that I will NEVER EVER step into COMMERCE. And where am I today? Studying ACCOUNTING. the only thing I can do is to comfort myself, telling myself that if i really did law, med or pharmaceutical, i wouldn't be here, in Melb Uni, a prestigious uni, i would had been in Shanghai's Second Medical Uni (if they had accepted me...) or another uni that provides law courses. I am here today, in Aust, to add a color to it, I'm in Melb Uni, all because i had done Accounting. Should I be glad with myself of should I be disappointed? Can someone tell me? Never in my secondary school life I imagined that I will ever do commerce...gosh...

Back to the topic. LS had always wanted to be a dentist. We even joked that if ever in the near future our children's teeth 'sengek', we'll bring them to her dental clinic; if ever, any of them wanna have a divorce or wanna wirte a will, come and find me, and i'll help them fight for more; if ever any of us need supplement of medicines, we can look for PM...etc. At that time, we were laughing every day, no worries for the future, unaware that in the end, only one out of so many of us that really had the initiative to go ahead in pursuing our dreams.

However, regretting now is too late for us (or should I say me?). Most of us are half way through our course and I am the only one among our gang graduating end of this (if everthing goes well ...), and the outside world is waiting for me, all those evil beings welcoming me into their world, waiting for me to step into the traps laid ahead...LIFE IS NEVER PERFECT, and I hope i will lead a 'lively' life after I graduate, not what people nowadays always says, NO LIFE de!

其实幸福很简单

2007-06-26T00:40:00.000+10:00

听着张栋梁的‘其实幸福很简单’，仔细想想，幸福真得就那么简单。

拥有疼惜我的家人，关爱我的好朋友们，可以让我敞开心胸谈心事的知己，就那么简单的，我已感到很幸福。没了你们，或许就不会有今天的我。谢谢你们一路上的陪伴、扶持与鼓励，让我能够坚强地走过这段漫长的旅程。

其实，只要我们是容易满足的，幸福的定义其实就那么简单...

2007-06-17T13:15:00.000+10:00

终于考完试了，没有一丝的兴奋，没有一丝的快乐，只有惆怅。也许是因为知道这漫长的假期没有的回家吧。加加减减，今年至少要留在这里漫长的十个月。十个月，减掉过了的一个学期，还剩六个半月。真得不知要怎么熬过这漫长的假期。妈妈也要大概七月中才会到达这里。

四十集的《溏心风暴》，我只用了两天半就看完了。坦白说，从中也学习了一些些的东西。“欢乐有时，悲哀有时”、“甜的吃，苦的也吃”，真得很有意思。但现在的我，相信只沉醉在悲伤中吧，很简单的，因为我要回家。

我要回家！我要回家！我要回家！我要回家！我要回家！我讨厌在这里自己那堕落的生活。从考试结束到今天为止，第一天，一点多才起身，第二天，十一点多，今天，十二点。我很讨厌过这种日子，睡到日上三竿，醒来后，完全没有计划的日子。就像幽魂一样的在家里，毫无目标的。至少如果回到家里，我可以纠缠着爸爸妈妈谈天、可以和家里的三只狗玩、可以烘培蛋糕、可以帮妈妈跑银行等等，至少可让我少胡思乱想。

这一次，我可以很大声地告诉大家，我终于放下了。很多时候，当你不经历一场风暴，你真得不会学会从梦中醒来。经过了这一次，我觉得，我不会再那么容易相信了。对我来说，它在风平浪静的时候是甜蜜的，但根本经不起风浪，简单来说，its fragile。就连整二十一年的它，在经过这一次的风暴后，已经变质了。累了，不想再渴望，缘分来了，自然就是你的。

找不到一个可以让我发泄的方式。睡觉？暴饮暴食？打人？哭？不，对我来说，哭泣再也不能帮我解决任何一件问题。从眼泪流干的那一刻，我知道，我不再是一样的我了。我只希望可以平平淡淡地过完大学生活的最后一个学期，毕业后找份工，然后回家。看开了，现在的信念是，人一生拥有多少，都是注定的。何必在意呢？

2007-05-14T18:26:00.000+10:00

一切都终于结束了...奇怪的是，心里是很平静的。往往每当到了解散的时候，心中都会有股莫名的澎湃，然而，这次却和以往有异。五场演出及无数次的彩排，带来了无价的友谊，承载着无数的美好回忆。若往后有人问起我大学生活最开心的日子，我会毫不犹豫地告诉他们，进入大学第三年的第一学期，参加中文戏剧组的广东production将是最难忘的。若不是因为参加了这个group, 我相信在墨尔本的两年里，我一定不会出去吃宵夜，也不会'yum cha'到凌晨3点多才回家。这是我在马来西亚也不曾体验过的。爸爸也鼓励我多交朋友，也很开明的不多管了，只要我有人陪着回家就好。

心中不再有任何期待，只希望平平静静的完成三年的大学生活。太多的期待，往往只换来无数的失望。很多人都开始追问我有没啊？哈哈，当然没啦，我太任性了，太粗鲁了，太三八了，太没仪态了，都吓跑人了。但当我发觉自己已经迈入二十大关时，哈哈，坦白说，难免是会有点不安。但是，单身不错嘛！自由得很，顶多有时寂寞的时候想有个人在旁边陪伴着我。

冬天即将来临，也将是我呆在墨尔本的最后一个冬天。没有的回家是有点遗憾及伤感，但想象可以在冬天的时候和朋友们一起吃火锅也是值得回忆的。所谓‘天下无不散之廷席’，就趁大家还在一起的时候来个留念，往后往回看时，也将是个带着微笑的回忆...

2007-05-04T20:02:00.000+10:00

finally, the first show is over! overall, it was quite a success. had supper at chilli padi. had quite a good time with all the crews that were present and also had jokes by shi yang , annie, lauren and zhi wai and a good laugh after a few weeks of stress really helps alot.

i look awful in this photo! >.<

results for the mid-sem papers are out too. did quite badly for my Derivative Securities. should i be glad that i passed the paper or should i be angry that i didn't work hard enough for this paper? 15 out of 30. thats really bad. my target was at least 20. Financial Accounting was not too bad. 31 out of 40. glad that i hit my target of 30. haha, at least i hit one out of my 3 targets right? =) Accounting for Corporate Entities paper's results are not out yet. hope i have a fair mark though.

missing m'sia soooo much. exam time tables are out and i will be finishing my finals on 14th june! asked for dad's permission to go back to m'sia but this round he's quite firm with his decision to not let me go home! T.T missing my babies so much. had a bad dream of Lucky man last night. really scare me off. didn't manage to continue with a good sleep after i woke up from that dream. hope everything back in m'sia is fine. dad tends not to tell me what is really happening back at home as he knows very well that i will be worried over here but i feel so out of the way not knowing what is happening mar...=(

anyway, really looking forward for mum coming in july or september perhaps! another thing, why wesak day in m'sia was on 1 May but Buddha's day here is 19 or 20 May?! so big difference de? hmm... =.="'

2007-04-12T16:20:00.000+10:00

dad & mum: 很想念在你们怀中撒娇的日子，很怀念每晚的good night kiss...很怀念dad的炒米粉，怀念mum的菜肴...
an &amp; win: 很想念与你们顶嘴的日子，小小的争吵，小小的打架，大大的拥抱...
happy & lucky: miss hugging both of you, happy you sure good girl de,lucky man, you don so picky for food lar, if don't eat then cannot come out of the cage eh...
丽珊、莞雯、洁敏: 一起加油！等我回到去我们一起去吃hi-tea!
sulin: 期末考要来了，祝你好运！考完就可以回槟城了！加油！

a lil more things to share or i should say what i've really learned and now i have found a way to express it through a forwarded mail:

i've learned -
that you cannot make someone love you,
all you can do is be someone who can be loved.
the rest is up to them

i've learned -
that no matter how much i care,
some people just don't care back.

i've learned -
that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.

i've learned -
that it's now what you have in your life,
but who you have in your life that counts.

i've learned -
that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
after that, you'd better know something.

i've learned -
that you shouldn't compare
yourself to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.

i've learned -
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

i've learned -
that it's not what happens to people that's important,
it's what they do about it.

i've learned -
that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.

i've learned -
that it's taking me a long time,
to become the person i want to be.

2007-04-06T10:11:00.000+10:00

现在的心情很复杂...昨天听妹妹说美燕阿姨去世了.虽然早就知道她已经熬不过这关，但接到他去世的消息时仍是很震撼的.记得去年为离开的前几天，我们还一起吃过一顿饭，后来，来了不久便从妈那儿得知阿姨的腹部一进开始硬化了，但过了几个月又听说病情好转了，再后来，今年回来不久便听说他的肾脏一进衰竭了，也已经瘦得皮包骨了.

人生就是这样，生、老、病、死.每个人必定会经生、病与死，但老，不是每个人都会有机会.

很多时候我都会在猜测自己到底会活到几岁呢？对我来说，长命不代表一定过得好.最重要莫过于健康及快乐.没有健康，就一定没有快乐.即使再长命，但生活一点都不快乐，那简单来说就是折磨.再者是，人生总得先苦后甜.若有机会吃到老，但老来的生活却苦不堪言，那更没意思.

总而言之，珍惜活着的每一刻，因为我们根本不知下一刻将发生什么事...

2007-03-27T17:10:00.000+10:00

天气渐渐开始转凉了，心境也开始平静下来了。
依然还是那么想念家里的一切，即使再想念，在墨尔本的生活依然必须继续。
最近虽然还是时常发恶梦，但每当从梦中醒来时，还是强迫自己镇定下来。或许是因为压力比较大吧！就那样的，已经进入了第五个礼拜。这个学期，希望借着繁忙的生活令自己不再想念一切。
参加了中文戏剧组。好怀念当初在广播组时的一切。从学妹们至在control room的感觉。一切都在自己的掌控中的感觉、那种在顺利地完成另一项任务时的成就感。
星期六到smith st.逛街。买了一件冷衣及一件上衣。算是种情绪上的发泄吧！
今天晚上到yitlin的家吃晚餐。很有家的味道，因为四个人一起吃的关系吧！有肉骨茶及几道青菜，对我来说已经是很丰富的一餐了。好怀念爸爸妈妈煮的菜肴，不管只是简单的炒蛋或者是芋头扣肉...要吃的话也得等上几个月后吧！今年的冬天暑假没得回家，很可悲啊！！！
期待着毕业的那一刻...

2007-03-06T17:12:00.000+11:00

in a blink of eye, had been back in melbourne for 1 week plus. still can't stop thinking of my family and friends back in m'sia. yeah, that's the real me, grumbling while back there but missing everyone when i'm far away. i feel more secured and cozy being beside my lovely family back there. dad only allowed me to call back the first week and no more starting from this week. uh...thats really a lil tough for me...=(

its quite a heavy load for me this sem (or year i would say). i'm in my third year. THIRD YEAR?! and in less than a year, i'll be graduating (if i pass everything smoothly)! for EPM, i'll need to hand in group assignments every week. around 1000 words perhaps... lectures are like 2 straight hours besides for ACE and EPM makes me feel drowsy...3 hours straight!

finished watching 千谎百计 and 肥田喜事, each in 2 days time. bah, i just can't stop once i start. so theres one more last show for me and i'll stop for then.

was thinking whether i should sign up for any caps or plans anot. my hp sometimes hang hang lidat. so frustrating. nokia 6288? sony ericson w810i? sony ericson k800i? i've no idea and i think i'm giving up... maybe jus leave it and get a new phone when i get back. one more thing! i manage to 'cure' my Kingston! i recovered my data storage space! soooooooo glad!

anyway, hope that everything goes smoothly ahead for me. i'm on diet. yeah, first time in my life i am on diet. only had rice twice since i came back, excluding the 4 handrolls i had... only have milk with cereal or egg with ham or a fruit for dinner and most importantly, no food after 9pm. hoping i will cut down at least 5 kilos?!

2007-02-21T21:57:00.000+11:00

uh.....gonna leave m'sia in 2 days plus time. leaving home for the third time seems to make my heart much heavier. just a quick glance on what i did tis summer vacation.

had my bd party 2 days after i reach m'sia. wow, miss all my darlings so much.
manage to finish my intern with EY for 2.5 mths. it was really a remarkable experience for me. this is also my first so-call "job".
spoil my new 1gb kingston thumbdrive to becoming oni 98.2mb left...T.T and dad had to get me another new one lolx!
made 20kg of fried nga ku. p/s: actually mum said 10kg enuf, but hor, i very tam chia, so i ask for 20kg, at the end make till omos pengsan...XD
baked cornflake cookies,cornflour cookies, almond toffee cookies, kuih bangkit oni, bcos no time mar
cut my hair twice =)
finish watching “天涯侠医”
learned to love yoga
went for bowling with family till my left leg got cramp =.="
learned to make 'movable' paper cranes
oni went for shopping not more than 5 times
ate everything i listed down on my 'list of must eat food'
make my mum n dad so angry of me
and most importantly......i gained at least 3.5kg!!!

feel tat time reli flies tooooooo fast for me. 3 mths!!! i just cant believe it that i had been back for 3 mths!!! i thought i just came bac yesterday!!! aaaaarrrr!!!

anywayz, new year new wish mar rite, ok. i hope that i will finish my final year in uni with flying colors lor, then, hope tat i can make up my decision to whether i want to stay bac in oz to get pr or to cum bac to m'sia. haha, thinks thats all lar.

lastly, wishing all my fellow frens a happy new year!

2007-01-17T15:47:00.000+11:00

omhs, had been working for more than 32 hours on this task and i am still not done with it yet.

had been photostating, sorting, clipping and filing in those dividend warrants for so many days and theres' still a whole stack there waiting for me tomorrow. to make things worst, i still have 2 tax comps waiting to be continued and one more to be amended. T.T i missed liwei's bd party and had been having bad migraines during the afternoons... WHERE IS MY HOLIDAYS?!

okok, CHILLING! putting aside this task, i'm actually enjoying my intern. get to know more ppl and learn to communicate better. btw, its soon coming to an end in a mth's time. there will be a 'farewell, appreciation and birthday party' at Monte's at BSC on thursday. and in more than a mth's time i will be leaving bac to oz...i jus hate the idae going bac there! bh...i hate melb!!!

anywayz, glad to held a birthday party cum gathering on the 3rd day i reach m'sia. reli had sooooooooooo much fun with kc's frens. sure too, we get to know some 'latest position' of some of our 'so call frens' lolx! had reli a very good time. hope to meet up again with them before leaving.

poor thing me, missed the gathering for liwei's bd. havent met with vu frens since i came bac. missing so many of them, the great time we had together during my first year! luckily had a few talk with thor before started working. again, i hope to meet up with them too.

ok lar, gtg pompom le and sleep early. panda eye shadows are coming back! @_@ anywayz, a late happy new year to all of you out there! may the year sail smoothly for all of us! =D

2006-12-02T20:12:00.000+11:00

累了...再次的相遇,更让我觉得筋疲力尽.
我试着更加的任性,告诉自己别再有任何遐想空间,一切早在八百年前就不该发生!!!
笑容,只是我用来掩饰自己的武器. 如果有所选择,我何不想大声地将内心深处的话呐喊出来呢?
我恨!恨自己为何一次又一次地伤害彼此!
或许,这是我最后一次对你的任性了.
在此,只希望你能原谅我,因为我有我的原因...

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<单身潜逃>

PS:我想我真的忘了,然而我不够坚强

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌

我也和你一样曾经年少轻狂受了一点伤
我们都是一样相信永远不远但坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的拷这点我善于的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷这点我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

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或许,这首歌现在最能衬托我现在的心情吧!

小孩的心

2006-11-12T10:06:00.000+11:00

有一位单身女子刚搬了家，她发现隔壁住了一户穷人家，一个寡妇与两个小孩子。
有天晚上，那一带忽然停了电，那位女子只好自己点起了蜡烛。没一会儿，忽然听到有人敲门。
原来是隔壁邻居的小孩子，只见他紧张地问: “阿姨，请问你家又蜡烛吗？”
女子心想：“他们家穷到连蜡烛都没有吗？千万别借他们，免得被他们依赖了！”于是，对孩子吼了一声说：“没有！”
正当她准备关上门时，那穷小孩展开关爱的笑容说：“我就知道你家一定没有！”说完，竟从怀里拿出了两根蜡烛，说：“妈妈和我怕你一个人住有没有蜡烛，朔依我带两根来送你！”
此刻，女子自责、感动的得热泪盈眶，江那小孩子紧紧拥在怀里。

心念一转，世界可以从此不同；人生中，都有转向的能力，就看我们怎么想、怎么转。
我们不会在三分钟内成功，但也许只花一分钟，生命从此不同。

--“我们不一定会因为赚很多钱而富有，但我们可以因付出的善念而使心中富有！”

2006-11-09T05:37:00.000+11:00

"Because Of You"
by Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Mixture of Feelings

2006-11-08T13:55:00.000+11:00

wow, its just been 3 days and i have already finished 2 papers. well, biz finance paper was not too bad lar, at least managed to finish everything. well, the corporate law paper sucks a lil anway...just hope to get a pass for it. nothing much can be done as its over. haha, so i am looking forward to my nex paper. each day passes very fast while studying ( and surfing the net ^_^). but as each days passes, the day going back to m'sia is getting nearer. as everyone knows, i'm always the homesick person amongst. well, i will miss the cooling weather here at least, haha, and maybe the public transport too, and when i can sleep till the afternoon here as dad wont be pestering me to wake up lolx! i think i wont be missing anything more than that. m'sia is still the best, with the best and economical food, with plenty of varieties for me to choose from. really make me start to drool once i think of my favourite penang char koay teow and then mid-nite supper for hokkien char...
i'm in a mixture of feelings right now. haha, may be funny to you people out there lar, as everyone is kan chiong bout their exam but i am here saying i am so. well, GOOD NEWS is i got an internship with Ernst & Young from 4 th December till 16 Feb. i'm glad too that i am offered the intern as its a prestigous company and i will learn lots of things there too. besides that, i will not have to bring any notes back as i will be busy with my intern by then, and i think dad wont ask me to revise summore lolx! on the other hand, i am a lil disappointed as my plan for trips and outings is gone. haha, i thought of going for an overseas tour with my family but i don't think i can make it for it now. anyway, mum advised me to go ahead til mid-Feb as they can still have the evenings and weekends with me. so, i'll be only having around 2 weeks in total fully devoted to my family. anyway, getting an intern makes me learn, makes me being exposed to the society more then. maybe that will make me more socialise lolx!
anyway, wishing all my friends out there good luck for your exams! all the best too! looking forward towards the day to see all of you!

2006-11-03T18:58:00.000+11:00

《纪念》
作词:薛永嘉
作曲:marko
编曲:郭伟聪
演唱:六甲

你的笑容太美丽
带点孩子气
看着伤感的电影
你会哭哭的

关于你不开心的事情
别怕还有我在陪着你
开不开心
都随风而去
相信会雨过天晴

纪念甜蜜
纪念感情
纪念我们相识日期
还有一些不经意
留待记忆来证明
纪念风景
纪念过去
纪念彼此心情日记
不管何时何地
都少不了彼此的勇气
我爱你

爱充满幻想的你
整天为小事情担心
我会消除所有顾虑
我会保护你
有些事情不用提
彼此都很默契
yeah～
我爱你
我爱你
我爱你
关于你不开心的事情
别怕还有我在陪着你
开不开心
相信总会
雨过天晴

有些事情不用提
彼此很默契
偶尔闹点小情绪
我会让着你

我爱你
yeah～oh

2006-10-29T23:45:00.000+11:00

<墨尔本的翡翠> 粤语版

歌手：林颐
作词、作曲:黄志远

卖力地为你唱只迷人情歌
慢慢地步入你的星座
故事情节总会坎坷
惟独有你靠在我身旁
尽力地为你抹去眼角泪光
尽力地避及猛风海浪
烦俗世间太彷徨
无奈青春不够耐看
我深怕我会连累你
让你翻山倒海般痛悲
自问已经筋竭力疲
没有力气竭斯底里
我奋力追
追到没法追
追到没法分清我是谁
不止我一人感到疲累
翻天的雨水能令你我都粉碎
我继续追
伤痛亦要追
跟接下去想不想都退
不管你的人被谁占据
都请你原谅我
始终带不到墨尔本的翡翠

尽力地为你抹去眼角泪光
尽力地避及猛风海浪
烦俗世间太彷徨
惟独青春不够耐看
我深怕我会连累你
让你翻山倒海般痛悲
自问已经筋竭力疲
没有力气竭斯底里
我奋力追
追到没法追
追到没法分清我是谁
不止我一人感到疲累
翻天的雨水能令你我都粉碎
我继续追
伤痛亦要追
跟接下去想不想都退
不管你的人被谁占据
始终爱不起，雾与火的差距
我继续追
伤痛亦要追
跟接下去想不想都退
不管你的人被谁占据
都请你原谅我
始终带不到墨尔本的翡翠

2006-10-15T16:47:00.000+10:00

oh gosh..i am really in a very tension mode now. the exam is coming nearer and nearer but i am SICK!!! damn it. had fever + very sore throat on friday nite. fever ceased off after i sweat out over the nite while my throat is still very very sore till today. had been having migraine yesterday and today. my plan to finish a few chapters is not done.
had a bad dream last nite. i dreamt that i failed all my papers. the marks were scary. 20+ and 30+. reli omos made me pissed on bed...yucks! immediately i thought of dad saying that i will have to come back earlier if i do badly in my exams. i was like 'GDI! no way i will go back earlier! i dowan to go back to oz so fas while its summer and i'll be all alone during cny!!! i will go crazy!'
in conclusion, i jus wan to pass everyhting n it will be d best if i can get an average of 70, then i can happy happy holiday!
good luck to all my frens lol! all the best in the coming exams!

2006-10-03T17:36:00.000+10:00

那一刻，我决定不再留恋的当儿，我真的松了一口气!
好久都没那么轻松过了.
曾经的酸、甜、苦、辣, 就让它们从此封锁在我心中的某个角落吧！
不再犹豫！
谢谢谢你曾经为我带来的快乐，也感谢你为我带来的痛苦，让我更懂得如何保护自己！也感谢你让我不再轻易相信别人，时时让我提醒自己不再犯同样的错误！
就到此为止吧...

2006-09-20T03:25:00.000+10:00

its the fifth day of mid-sem break today. as usual, did nothing again in these 5 days, besides going around lolx.
after the ifa (intermediate financial accounting) mid-sem paper on thursday, cheryl, zhi hao n i decided to go for ice cream at fredos. i had durian and fredos' surprise each one scoop. argh, it made me miss durian back in m'sia. after that we went to elizabeth street to look around the camera shops. i saw a few that i like but the price was also 'liking'...later we had 'lord of the fries' and had a walk back to their apartment. it was cold and windy tat evening. had a good walk along yarra river and the night view was beautiful. we then took the train to camberwell for dinner. hahaha, only 3 dishes and we also didnt manage to finish. we ordered a seafood platter (fretto misto), a plate of spaggheti carbonara and a small pizza. the carbonara was delicious but we were too full to finish it so we 'da bao' it lor. reach home quite late tat nite but had a nice time together chatting lolx!!! =P

3 pastas in a big plate served in sophia

the ice cream served in sophia

half way eaten fretto misto!!!

rich n creamy n cheesy spagghetti carbonara!!!

tropical hawaiian delight (if i m not wrong lolx!)

on friday we went to chadstone. at least we managed to get ourselves there although it was the first time. took the train then later took bus to reach. there were nothing much there but had a good time too at the arcade. slamming on the crocs was reli fun!!! had nandos for lunch. glad tat c & zh manage to get the choc they were looking for --Golden poker and Gianduiotto. hehe, they gave me some too! thanx!

Golden poker and Gianduiotto

on saturday, we went to boxhill. aunty jane brought us to forest hill. saw lots of cute thingys there! maybe i'll go another round lolx. things there were extremely cheap! we saw a set of cooking utensils (70 pieces) and it only cost $129! the whole set looks so nice! later we went back to boxhill. aj brought us to a few shops that sells asian groceries and also a seafood shop. saw so many choices of dumplings and dessert in the seafood shop. reli make me drool lar...c & zh managed to get 'Overseas Restaurant' mooncake from the grocery shops. i can really feel the autumn festival mood over there. you can find boxes of mooncakes in stacks around any asian grocery shops over there. i miss the cheesie mooncake from Tai Thong and the yam mooncake from Teochew Restaurant so much!!! omg, how i wish i am back home now!!! later i got some 'yong tau foo' from a shop. bought six pieces of it as i reli missed mum's. mum's ytf is a mix of pork and fish meat together with spring onion but the ytf here was oni fish meat, but at least i get to eat rather than nothing mar...bought also 2 pkts of vegetarain curry/rendang. but hor, its imported from m'sia de lar...using double the price to buy over here. =.= '''

had a good rest on sunday and did 'part' of the bf assignment together with c & zh on monday.
we continued today but at last decided to put it aside lar as we didnt have any idea how to answer the questions...geram betul!!! (T.T) so........we decided to go over to their apartment to bake scones and a butter cake!!!! i am SOOOOOO happy that the scones turned out perfect! its the first time for me baking scones lol. the texture was ngam ngam leh! we ate with jam and butter lolx! later only mum told me tat we eat either with cream or jam, anyway, it was DELICIOUS!!!

scones in the oven!!!

freshly baked scones cooling on the rack!

ready to be served!

while whisking the batter for the butter cake, i thought that its 'gone case' liao as the batter was too dry. when we double checked with the recipe oni to find out that we forget to add in milk. hohoho, luckily in the end the cake turned out GOOD! the sweetness was ngam ngam and the tecture was fine too (although the look wasnt reli nice ^_^ )! ops, no photos for the cake as we we too excited le and i cut liao the cake oni realised...=D

anyway, i am quite enjoying my holiday right now although i need to solve some problems. hip hip hurray!!! hope i will fully use this holiday going around melbourne and start my corp. law asap!!! gambate!!!!

2006-09-13T18:40:00.000+10:00

argh!!!怎么好像永远读不完的呢？！
今天放学回来后，倒头大睡，竟然睡到傍晚六点...
所以又浪费一天了咯.
读来读去还是困在第7&8课的习题.
已经开始期待着假期的来临了.‘希望'我会好好利用那两个星期，不要到头来又后悔.
爸爸妈妈今晚打电话来了,都担心我的健康...没办法呀，在三姐妹中，我的健康是最令父母担心的.
不是鼻塞了，就是咳嗽了,不是这个就是那个.
从没忘记在小学时每两三个星期就往诊疗所跑.医生总是开一贴黄色的液状抗生素.现在回想起来真感到恶心.都不知自己为何有一阵子都向医生要液状药,而不要药丸.笨就是笨...
这个学期里,健康总是频频出状况.开始就喉咙通了两个礼拜，后来就伤风，再后来就咳嗽.等上风咳嗽渐渐好起来时，不小心凉到了，咳嗽又逐渐严重...
希望自己在考试时不会病倒啊！加油！加油！加油！

2006-09-12T00:10:00.000+10:00

又过一天了...
本来想逃一节课的，但是一想到爸爸妈妈那么辛苦供我读书若我还逃课的话，真是太对不起他们了，所以到最后关头还是决定去上课.
至少今天没什么胡思乱想，太多课了，根本没什么时间让我乱想哩！
但是，今天还是又想起他...
为什么呢？虽然知道我们之间的机会似乎等于零，但我还是控制不了自己像他啊.
人人都说时间是最佳的良药，但是都过了那么多年了，他也亲口告诉我了，为何自己还是放不下呢？
在与相差家里十万八千里的异国里，很多时候我都感到很孤单.偶尔多希望有人可以毫不吝啬的给我个拥抱,好好安慰我一番;借我肩膀让我在累的时候靠一靠，在我想哭的时候可以哭倒在怀里...或许我偶尔有点任性，但是在我任性的那一刻才是真正的我...来到这里就不可以对父母撒娇了，所以至今还是时常home sick...
现在还在考虑是否应该在一月回来澳洲念summer...虽然只是一科，但是至少可以在其中一个学期减轻负担.但是一想到必须在新年自己一个人过的时候，就会觉得很孤单，而且越想到那种感觉就越不想那么早回来！！！
怎么办呢...谁来救救我啊...

2006-09-10T02:23:00.000+10:00

现在对自己的形容词只有一个，就是: 身心疲惫
上个礼拜考了两个测验，第一个还不错，第二个，可以及格就好了...
发觉当我真正专心的时候,杂念就不会存在.
我已经放纵自己胡思乱想一阵子了.
脑子里经常会蹦出很多个万一...
万一有一天医生判断我只剩下个月性命的话，我会怎样好好去利用那一个月？
万一考试考得不理想的话，怎么办？
万一有一天父母不在了,我还能坚强的活下去吗？
万一这个、万一那个...
发觉自己越来越悲观了.
昨晚选择走路回家，就是希望自己借着半长不短的路程让自己反省这个学期所犯下的错误.
想了好久，才发觉自己平白浪费了半个学期了，幸好有中期测验，否则，又要在年尾一口气念完一个学期的课程了.
心中还是存在着他的影子，希望时间会慢慢把他从我的心中抹去...